random

haha this is the first thing that i done from a text tutorial for photoshop..here is the result..is quite rough...but i will improve..*grin* im just so happy..it actually turn out right :)

does this look like a bubble like wording to u? :/ i hope so too :)

write me a symphony

i always wanted to play piano or try to learn to play one..hehe..but its a very expensive investment to be made on me..my mum wouldnt let..there are many things that is much more important right now compared to my silly fantasy to play piano..i need money for my studies..that is more important..but i have always wanting and longing just to have a piano and to play it..professionally.. *grin* hahaha..not that good but descent to the ears of people..a few songs maybe...

we used to have one back in 2002 but my mum sold it..cause nobody was playing it then it is better than to let it rot ..i would if i had the time...back then i had to focused on my studies...so bohhooo to that dream.. :(
at home we still have a guitar but fyi i kind of bad at it...i just couldnt understand how it goes..from strumming to plucking..well learning on your own was definitely hard enough..so byebye to guitar..

sometimes i just dont know where i stand...i dont know if im an art person or an calculating person err is that what u call it? im not that good in languages nor in physics..but ok in drawing or my passion for it..also im doing quite good in math..so maybe im just in the middle..im balance perhaps? :)

 im happy as i am now..perhaps someday i will manage to buy a piano and learn to play then i will let u hear it.. :)

save the kitty!

a couple of nights ago i was watching tv...flipping from channel to channel..FOX to AXN to starworld then to animal planet..it definitely got my attention..the show that was on is "Must love cats"..gosh..i just have a weak spot for cats...just couldnt say no to that..*grin* hehe..

there's this very intriguing topic that night..we all know that a soldier is trained to be tough and hard inside and definitely out..no emotions are to be shown..they need to be fearless..they need to be hardcore...this is in order for them to protect and serve superbly....that is what we expect from a soldier but at the end of every day they are also human just like us, with feelings and emotion...so what do soldiers got to do about cats? aha! got your attention?

operation baghdad pups this is a very very cool program they did..they helped soldiers in iraq to bring their pets/companion/buddy/man's best friend from iraq (which they found there in iraq) to their own hometown when they received the orders to go home..

im really surprise..wow..first..these soldiers do have feelings :') because experiencing war especially at a different country it may leave u with bruises, physically and emotionally..the emotional part is quite difficult to heal as the soul witness many things and probably had to do things that they arent proud of to remember..it definitely leaves a mark...

there's something about this fury creature that sort of heals the heart in a way we dont really know..they kind of helped to readjust the life of the soldiers at home...secondly..it must have cost thousands of dollars just to get the pets safe from their base at iraq to the soldiers own hometown...definitely it requires donation...lots of it..im really touched by these people effort..

here in Malaysia the spca is not that advanced like in the U.S but its still maintained a good job caring for the cats..here cats breed like humans but double the size..hehe wherever there is a human population there's definitely a clowder of cats....at home or at the market and even on the streets.. :)

so cheers for a new reason to live! God have created these awesome creature also as a very cool companion so dont neglect or hurt them..arent we're just lucky? :)

nothing

credits to azlyrics since this will be my current lullaby and shower song ;) i just love this song! i would if i could include a video but im just toooo busy studying for MUET speaking test for tomorrow...haha is it? well i have to..dont be over confident please.. :)

[Verse 1]
Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can’t see where this is gonna end
They all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
Dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing

[Verse 2]
So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I faced her face, that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
Dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing

She said nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
Oh, I got nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Ohh, sometimes love's intoxicating
Ohh, you're coming down, your hands are shaking
When you realize there's no one waiting

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I’ll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they’re slurred
Dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing

She said nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
I got nothing
I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Ohh I got nothing

I got nothing [x3] 

envy

lately been caught up with this really really not so good feeling..which is jealousy! god..im so freakin jealous..with everybody everything..what happened? yeah..regret and ungrateful happened...that's just bad...and envy is one of the 7 deadliest sins besides wrath, greed, sloth, pride, lust and gluttony...

regrets just stop u from living what u dream of...everybody have regrets..like if only i did better maybe i could be somewhere . . . and another if only i didnt do that do this maybe i could . . . etc. so stop awhile then move on..never delay...once u stop for a long time it might get hard for some to stand and run again..and another would be about ungrateful..why do we feel ungrateful? cause we feel inadequate in some part maybe..in material or spiritual? what i have learnt is that we have to accept our fate..this is the best for us and maybe there's a rainbow after a heavy rain that is yet for us to know and experience...

for me, if i ever start to get jealous with anybody for their success or wealth or health or life i would ask myself first.."am i doubting God's will?"..it is He that give all of those things..i have no right to question that..and yeah maybe there is something better for me soon or later..just got to have faith.. ;)

also i hate this feeling..its sooo unhealthy...i feel unhealthy..haha must get rid of jealousy!

out of the blue

*poof* suddenly im back? haha

its been like ages since i last updated..yeah..even on facebook i wasnt that active..so any recent activity? yeah..im on holiday ! and going to take my MUET speaking test next week..wouldnt want to be that confident..i know im capable..but as like what they always say..we can plan as perfect as we can but it is in God's will to let it happen or not..and for God knows what's the best for us..that doesnt mean we dont have to work hard for it..i still need to practice..

so other than that i just installed my photoshop cs5 extended.. ngehehe..*wide grin ...so here just a few pictures edited by me! im still a newbie X) haha will try harder next time..

i just love the part when i can blur the background without getting all of the picture blurred..so that's all from me :) see ya!