ukulele#2 :my uke!

lol.. i should have posted this like a month ago.. but i just didn't have the time or interest to write anything..

so, i finally got an ukulele.. its a Mahalo soprano.. hold up don't judge..

my opinion.. yes i know its really cheap but its really not bad.. for a beginner like me, just trying to venture into this new experience.. i really couldn't tell the difference between which is bad or good without testing it for myself.. plus i had to use my own money...

i'm a student and i don't work..plus my parents don't financially support my interest.. if i want something then i have to get it on my own.. its a good exercise cause i'll definitely value the stuff i buy more..appreciate it more..

so back to the topic..this ukulele is pretty good, not bad...i just love to play with it...like i want to have it in my arms 24/7.. i'm totally comfortable..its not bulky like the guitar..plus the soprano is the smallest.. loving it to the max! this mahalo ukulele to me is the type of ukulele you can bring anywhere on a trip without totally worrying bout it being scratched or anything.. different people have different opinions..

i like how the white match with the black fretboard and gold machine head/ tuner pegs..it looks really CLASSY..this ukulele comes with a white bag..the bag is not padded..its just like a covering for the uke like from dust or scratches.. lol.. i might get a padded bag in the future..

i did that diamond shape myself.. still trying to find cool stickers to put on my uke... my uke its too bland.. just a white uke.. now its not just a white uke... this is my uke.. my style..

next post i'll update the songs that i learnt.. lol..

unappreciated

let me blog to write my woes away.

i am extremely sad. why?before that let me tell u about this dr. phil test..i think its a personality test.. i got 39 marks for about 10 questions from the test and this is what it said..

if i were to rate i give it a 10/10 for being so true! i am like that.. seriously..it could be good but at the same time maybe bad for me.. 

i have a lot of friends.. i have met many people.. but i truly have just a few real friends.. that is from my point of view..

why do i even bothered? why do i even care for someone who doesn't even remember me? cause i am like that! and its sometimes frustrating.. you'll only get hurt.. you'll only get disappointed...

i'm not the type to stay mad for too long...its tiring... but the pain really really last longer... that is the hardest part for me...

i am really hurt... people always say its the thought that counts and i truly agree with that..the smallest things you do always gives the biggest impact.. you don't have to give fancy expensive stuff..you give me a rock or a tree if you were my friend.. the friend i care, trust, love i would accept it, appreciate it, keep it... don't put a price-tag on our friendship..

right now i just felt betrayed, forgotten...it hurts cause i stupidly cared, trusted, loved this friend while this person never bothered to even remember or to care bout me... i felt unappreciated.. just that.. we humans would always hope for something in return.. to be appreciated to be acknowledge..cause we are humans..

just to say...

don't love too much, don't care too much, don't trust too much... a reminder to myself...

ukulele

i couldn't play the guitar for a while.. my sis took it away.. sob sob..so i've thought of getting an ukulele.. just a soprano one..the basic.. its really interesting so i went through all the reviews regarding the best ukulele to get for a beginner like me.. countless have said makala, lanakai, or kala brands are famous for beginners.. plus its at a reasonable price.. im really want to get one.. we'll see.. maybe... :)

so i went through youtube again to check out songs cover from ukulele.. and there this amazing kid sungha jung.. he's like a guitarist genius.. i mean like seriously.. he surprise me everytime.. so talented.. check this out!

regret

just a quick post... i'm feeling regretful..

the thing about regret is that it eats you up slowly.. you never going to forget...it can cause depression.. i speak from experience..so how do you let go of that feeling? cause its such a negative feeling.. its like a flu or a pain from a wound.. so what is the medication to heal it? I'm not really sure..

acceptance maybe.
forgive yourself.
and don't repeat the same mistake.

its much easier to say than to actually do it right? it needs time. but can time really heal? how long?

honestly I'm depressed. there are like many types of depression. if i were to explain it may take awhile. this is just a quick post. something to write the woes away maybe? i'll let you know on the next post. about depression. people need to know. they can't be ignorant.

if possible try to live a life without regret.

first made gif

as you can see.. i finally made an animated gif picture! the method is so easy but finding and getting the right layers for every frame its hard... just for sharing! goodnight!

I'M BORED

i get bored easily...is it bad? feels like a disease.. i can't seem to stick to one activity.. always wanted to try something new.. can't seem to stick to one routine.. hurrmm..

like when i wanted to do origami.. i did learned to fold a few shapes...

a jumping frog!

then i wanted to learn to play the guitar... i did learned a few chords ( until my fingertips got swollen)...
then i wanted to read a book..im reading one now..

a really good book!

then i wanted to learn how to dance.. to do the shuffle.. i did learned how to shuffle, 'the running man' and 'T-shuffle'.. plus i can do the moonwalk now..i also wanted to try editing videos.. and i did make a video.. now i want to learn to make gif pictures..its still in the making...

during this holiday it somehow never stops.. keep wanting to do something.. i don't feel like doing nothing, watching tv and online or just laze around the house..now that i notice this is that i never really focus on a specific subjects.. its bad cause that's how i am when i study..my life.. ugh.. its just bad..it shows that i can't focus too long...how do i get myself to focus more? i seriously dont know.. maybe i will try too google it later..

i'll let you know in the next post if i found anything that might help me.. bye!

lets jamming!

just a quick post since i have to wake up early tomorrow.. so i said before that on this holiday i wanted to learn how to play a guitar... i actually wanted to play piano but my mum sold the old piano long time ago.. sigh.. i wanted to buy a piano keyboard but its so effing expensive...sigh again..

so? i borrowed my sister's guitar which was my brother's guitar initially.. since im a beginner its quite hard learning the chords and my fingers are really hurting.. yepp.. first time its always like that..i'll get a hang of it maybe a week or two depending on my practice on it..

its awesome right?? :)

i wanted to really play this song.. its "you and me" by lifehouse.. but im having difficulty understanding how the strum goes.. fortunately i'd found a really good and awesome tutorial on youtube.. this man is awesome..he made the chords use in the song to be beginners friendly.. much easier for someone like me to learn it.. hopefully by next week before i go back to being a full time student i can play this song.. :)
goodnight!

skills, hobby,dancing, music?

i once said that i'm learning how to do the moonwalk. i did practice. its not perfect but i guess atleast i know how to do the moonwalk.so its a success!

besides the moonwalk. i started learning to do the shuffle. right now i just manage to do 'the running man' shuffle and also the 'T-step' shuffle.

so many things i wanted to do during this holiday. to add more skills. like i'm learning how to do a video, editing all that stuff plus i'm doing origami. maybe learn to play a guitar. or i can learn sign languages. interesting things to do during the holiday. i don't travel so this is a really good effort how to spend my holiday. not just watching TV.

its possible right? i did the moonwalk, shuffle, origami and even made my first FMV.

where do i learn all this? my mentor? my sifu? YouTube! hehehe. well everything seems to be in the internet nowadays so its really easy.

learning things i'm interested in, it makes the learning process easier and fun. i really feel excited to learn all those things.

that's all for tonight!

confession of a fan girl

I'm gonna say it. i won't take back on my words. here it goes.

I'm officially a fan. :) hehehe. i love their songs. every songs is awesome. very addictive. plus they're all so cute. so pretty. what group am i talking about?

its T-ara!

how in the first place i started liking this group? its not from watching 'Dream High 1' where T-ara eunjung was in it but i started to be interested from watching 'Invincible Youth 1' where T-ara Hyomin was in it. totally fall for her charms. she so cute. so funny. but when she's on stage to perform its like a totally different person. completely focus into her character in that performance. she's awesome. such professional. respect that.

Hyomin! :)

the group its been hard on them with all those scandals. i still like the group regardless of what all those cowardly haters said and do. T-ara, they're very talented. i believe this group would be greater in the future because of all those hardships its gonna make them stronger. just like SNSD (also my favourite group) when they had to face that 'black ocean' in 2008. they didn't perform on any stage for almost a year. its really mean what happened. but after that SNSD became really successful. Both of T-ara & SNSD face these kind of hardship. i believe they'll do better. I'm waiting for a comeback again from both group! :)

T-ara fighting! SNSD fighting!

lastly i made a video of T-ara Hyomin! i wanted to learn to do videos so this is just with pictures maybe next time i can put a few clips in the video. i'm trying to learn new skills. its good right? enjoy the video. background song "Love is easy - Mcfly".

moonwalk-ing!

i found something interesting! to me that is. :) suddenly i wanted to do this. no. actually i dont know how to do it. so i have to learn this. what is this im talking about? i bet most of you people know how to do this. what is it??? wait for it...wait for it...

THE MOONWALK

obviously i had to look through the video...yeeppp... its hard for me...gonna keep on trying till i get it perfect... imma be MJ.. :) hehe 

i usually put up a video.. maybe when im really good at it.. :)

i need an A

i'm craving for an A. eh?. biasa nye craving makanan. ahhaaha. dah lama kot tak dpt A untuk core subject. A- lagi la. asyik2 lulus je. typical problem student sekarang. bukan awak tapi saya. eh bukan nyee aku tak bersyukur. kecewa dgn diri je. sbb tahu diri ni boleh jadi lagi ok daripada tu. eh bukan nk berlagak juga. its just i know myself better. i know my potential. i know i can do it.

short semester had begun. done with the first week! sem ni aku ambik 2 subjek. microprocessor & interfacing and engineering management 1. ingat nak keje part time tapi bila fikir balik mmg tak boleh. kalau ptg smpai mlm keje pastu pagi nye ada kelas. bila lagi nk study? i need to score this. nak naikkan balik cgpa. right now its just sad. T.T im not gonna say how much tapi teruk la. and im really scared. bila jadi camni baru nk sedar kan? biasa la manusia. im not perfect. aku lalai. i have no discipline. i need a change. its not too late!

another problem. salah ke kalau aim nak dpt A?kalau kita rajin study buat semua assignment org kata kita skema. then salah ke jadi skema? sejak bila doing good is bad? let people say what they want to say but dont let it get you. 

grades, get well soon. >_<

untuk budak2 engineering :-

i edit the top. it used to be a crown but i was bothered by it. :)

think healthy! think iPad mini!

i challenged myself. no. actually i was challenged by my big sis. this 30 day challenge. currently doing squat and i just add crunch also. personally if you want to exercise its much fun to do with somebody. if you're doing it alone chances of you're not doing it or to give up is really high. im not saying its u. its just me. i need someone to push me. i need support when i feel like i can't continue. i need someone to continuously to remind me that I CAN DO IT. those moments are crucial if you're thinking of loosing weight. like me.

doing this right now. today is day 6! 75!

my goal for this month is to loose....

A BIG 5 for this month!

i need to have a goal right? to increase my motivation that is. besides wanting to loose weight, i just want to be healthy again, to be able to run without getting tired too fast to be able to do sports that i used to love ( handball), i just want to be fit like i used to be.

besides being healthy and loosing weight i also want to get an iPad mini. eh. why suddenly iPad mini? cause this is the prize i will get! that's if im able to loose a lot. i mean a lot. >_< seriously?? what should i do? im gonna get it. im dead serious. see me later in a few months. its never easy to start but one step at a time. yesssss! you can do it!

think healthy!think iPad mini! :P

mine. soon.

HELP

suddenly i thought of this song. 'help' by the Beatles. its just perfect to what im feeling now. im not okay. really not okay.

"Help, I need somebody

Help, not just anybody

Help, you know, I need someone

Help "

who can i reach to? mama? no. she doesn't understand. during her time of growing up it was much harder because of war and lack of education and everything. it was hard to get a good education at that time and only the wealthy people could afford it. but they don't understand this kind of things the new generation face. its different. i just don't know how to explain.

i'm annoyed plus sad. it just been hard. i do not expect people to understand but at least try. sigh.

this feeling will just later on fade away..it just needed time. tonight i'm just blogging nothing useful. just feelings.

goodnight. :)

it hurt soooo bad

what should i do? i really don't know what to do now. i mean..should i cry? should i be happy? should i be grateful? yes. i am grateful. but somehow it hurt so bad. so this is how it felt? this is how it felt to fail. nak nangis pun ada. hurt so bad. :(

aku sedih ni. first time kot fail. tapi aku mcm dh boleh rasa akan fail 1 subjek ni even before exam or study week lagi. mmg rasa mcm tak belajar apa2 mmg patut la kna repeat. perkara dh lepas. aku masih bersyukur subjek2 yg lain ok. 1 ni je problem. its ok this chance i won't waste it. i won't tell mama. that's for sure. mati aku nanti.

so mcm mna kita nak react if we fail a subject or course? what should i feel? what should i do when i felt that  like my life is crumbling right in front of me. adooii. dramatic sungguh. its not the end of the world.

to me. paling penting skrg i need to be strong. to accept this and to understand why it happened and to improve. second never give up. its not the end. thank you Allah for that. i was given another chance. to repeat this and to get better. third, i should be patience and optimist. everything happens for a reason. maybe this is my wake up call. bersabar. banyak2 bersabar.

i know. believe me. i know. kata2 lagi senang diungkap than to actually do it.so mlm ni kita nangis, kita sedih, kita menjerit sekuat hati, kita luahkan segala kesedihan di hati. esok pagi kita senyum, kita bangkit and keep on living.

honestly, its going to take me a while...to heal.. hopefully i can be more motivated by next week.

jom layan lagu ft island before tidur. you are love.  goodnight!

pencinta buku

assalamualaikum and wassup?

so i started writing again. it just crossed my mind and i had to write it down. so here is another one that suddenly pops out of my mind.

aku dah lama tak baca buku. novel ke majalah ke surat khabar ke. semua dah lama tak bukak. walaupun dah ada kemajuan teknologi yg canggih, nak baca newspaper online pun boleh. hebat tak? tapi aku kalau online langsung tak bukak website mcm tu. bukak apa? bukak facebook, bukak twitter, bukak youtube. *sigh

ok. jadi aku dah list-kan buku buku yg aku nak baca time cuti ni. nak kata buku2 ilmiah tak la sgt. novel? tp kan kalau ada buku yg boleh buat kita fikir kira ilmiah jugak la. kita tak boleh nak kata buku mcm tu tak berfaedah. reading a book itself gives benefit cause reading its not something useless.

aku lagi suka baca buku bahasa inggeris. bukan sbb buku melayu tak setanding buku bahasa inggeris. buku melayu hebat jugak. sekarang ada bnyak buku melayu yg menarik. so why? for me english books they write the words formally. kalau buku melayu ada yg guna bahasa rojak, short form. plot dah menarik tapi bahasa je kureng. :) aku bukan la pengkritik novel tapi hanya pencinta buku. nak kata org aku pun sama. bahasa yg aku guna tak la seindah mana. masih boleh difahami. so relax bro. :)

to me its good to read books. pinjam dari library ke dari kawan ke atau beli pun bagus. its a good investment. reading. so pick up a book and start reading! ;) bye!

here is some of the book that i wished to read during this holiday. :)

something bout love

love can be...weird, complicated, motivating, exciting, hurting, memorable and so on. it can be both negative or positive. depends on the way people see it, feel it or experience it. i can't really say anything but i know one love that is good for us and its forever. God's love.

aku teringat, mama aku selalu pesan kalau nak cari jodoh tu cari yg :-

1. sayangkan kita lebih daripada kita sayang dia
2. boleh bimbing keluarga, boleh jadi imam laa
3. hormat ibu bapa dia (bila dia hormat parents dia sudah pasti dia akan hormat parents kita)

mama takde sebut pn pasal duit atau pangkat atau kedudukan keluarga sbb duit tu kita boleh cari. alam ciptaan Allah swt ni luas. selagi masih bernafas selagi tu rezeki kita masih ada. apa benda yg kita nak tu tak semestinya benda yg kita perlu. we need to prioritize. live in moderation. tak mati pun kalau camtu.

aku ni bukan la baik mana tp aku tahu la juga dunia ni sementara je yg kekal tu akhirat kelak. this is our only chance so don't waste it. lari dari topik plak. ahaha. :)

kalau aku plak kira mcm 'my ideal type' la :-

1. yg ada hala tuju ( apa yg dia nk capai, kira mcm ada cita2 la. bukan mcm robot yg ikut je apa org cakap, apa org fikir)
2. yg boleh di harap, responsible
3. penyayang (to animals and humans)
4. aku rasa point yg ni semua perempuan pasti nak. which is loyalty.

kalau nk tulis semua mmg panjang la kn list aku tu. ehehehe. tapi nobody is perfect but its not wrong to try to be better. mmg la kalau nk kata Allah swt yg jadi kita mcm ni. tapi Dia tak jadikan kita mcm ni supaya kita tak usaha utk jadi lagi baik.

kalau nak cakap pasal cinta2 ni mmg banyak la kn. this is just my thoughts. that's it i guess. bye!

terima la hati ni... comel tak? :) have a great monday!