unappreciated

let me blog to write my woes away.

i am extremely sad. why?before that let me tell u about this dr. phil test..i think its a personality test.. i got 39 marks for about 10 questions from the test and this is what it said..

if i were to rate i give it a 10/10 for being so true! i am like that.. seriously..it could be good but at the same time maybe bad for me.. 

i have a lot of friends.. i have met many people.. but i truly have just a few real friends.. that is from my point of view..

why do i even bothered? why do i even care for someone who doesn't even remember me? cause i am like that! and its sometimes frustrating.. you'll only get hurt.. you'll only get disappointed...

i'm not the type to stay mad for too long...its tiring... but the pain really really last longer... that is the hardest part for me...

i am really hurt... people always say its the thought that counts and i truly agree with that..the smallest things you do always gives the biggest impact.. you don't have to give fancy expensive stuff..you give me a rock or a tree if you were my friend.. the friend i care, trust, love i would accept it, appreciate it, keep it... don't put a price-tag on our friendship..

right now i just felt betrayed, forgotten...it hurts cause i stupidly cared, trusted, loved this friend while this person never bothered to even remember or to care bout me... i felt unappreciated.. just that.. we humans would always hope for something in return.. to be appreciated to be acknowledge..cause we are humans..

just to say...

don't love too much, don't care too much, don't trust too much... a reminder to myself...

ukulele

i couldn't play the guitar for a while.. my sis took it away.. sob sob..so i've thought of getting an ukulele.. just a soprano one..the basic.. its really interesting so i went through all the reviews regarding the best ukulele to get for a beginner like me.. countless have said makala, lanakai, or kala brands are famous for beginners.. plus its at a reasonable price.. im really want to get one.. we'll see.. maybe... :)

so i went through youtube again to check out songs cover from ukulele.. and there this amazing kid sungha jung.. he's like a guitarist genius.. i mean like seriously.. he surprise me everytime.. so talented.. check this out!

regret

just a quick post... i'm feeling regretful..

the thing about regret is that it eats you up slowly.. you never going to forget...it can cause depression.. i speak from experience..so how do you let go of that feeling? cause its such a negative feeling.. its like a flu or a pain from a wound.. so what is the medication to heal it? I'm not really sure..

acceptance maybe.
forgive yourself.
and don't repeat the same mistake.

its much easier to say than to actually do it right? it needs time. but can time really heal? how long?

honestly I'm depressed. there are like many types of depression. if i were to explain it may take awhile. this is just a quick post. something to write the woes away maybe? i'll let you know on the next post. about depression. people need to know. they can't be ignorant.

if possible try to live a life without regret.

first made gif

as you can see.. i finally made an animated gif picture! the method is so easy but finding and getting the right layers for every frame its hard... just for sharing! goodnight!