Loneliness

Lonely but sad. Lonely but happy.. Two different meaning behind

it...its lonely but with a different feeling..

Im a quite person..i dont know if i have a best friend..but i do 

acknowledge this one person as the closest to me..but even she do not 

know whats deep inside me..she doesnt know any of the 

heartache...maybe i just never showed it..especially to the one who 

are close to me..

Loneliness is always looking for a friend...it found me once and has been around since then..

the songs to the once 

famous boy band..yes..u must have heard of it..westlife..

What I'm feeling is that lonely but sad..I don't know..I kind of miss 

my sister..she's not always at home..in matrics..holiday is very hard 

to get for her..so I'm the one who is always home..as u may know in 

the previous post I wrote about home sweet home..hehe..

I remember clearly..since we were small we always 

fight...constantly..I used to scream at her..I was really furious..but 

somehow when we were 15 our foster dad got sick..after that we were 

always together....she always held my back..and I held her..when 

everything falls apart..the family..problems...my dad..he changed 

completely to his old self..or much worse..it's hard for me and my 

sister..who can we depend on now?hmmph..couldn't get any better..life 

just get hard..it's been almost 4 years now..sometime this drive me 

crazy....gaaaaahhh..

All in all..I'm still alive....I'm not crazy.. :D hehe..how long would 

it take for me to crack? We'll see how far this go...fuuhhh...inhale 

and exhale..breathe........................