I'm back!

I'm really am back at my hostel. Yep. Very early. Raya was like yesterday. Hehe. So....I'm thinking of staying here at the student lounge since nobody is back at my room plus there's internet connection here.

I got loads of work that needed to be done. Luckily i didn't bring home my huge calculus book. It be waste if i did cause there's no point of studying if you're home. Unlimited wifi, tv and food! Yeah. Procastinate again. Sigh. I should really get rid of that habit. :)

Since i'm back here i should be much more enthusiastic with my studies. I need a push. I should have a resolve.

Seriously. Plus i'll try to update as much as i can even if its through my phone. :) gonna go do work now! See ya!

who am i?

who am i? im BATMAN!

ehhhh??? im no superhero.. im just me.. :)

i wonder who reads my blog... seriously wonder.. hurrmmm.. but yeah i dont care if there's nobody.. im just happy with writing what i think or feel.. so lately i haven't been updating...bwahahah.. actually it was like months ago! my bad! been 'super busy'! but seriously am busy now..just thought of writing something in the midst of my study week with extremely lots of assignment and studies.. :) so how ya doin?

me? im feeling a bit down since the beginning of this new semester....i used to have this quotation below that motivates me everytime but lately its not much of a use...

" Whatever the mind can conceive and believe, the mind can achieve."

I've been using this quotation ever since i was 12... it was a big help back then but now it just doesnt feel right...i guess things change.. people change..............i change... as i get older (20 right now!) i see things much clearer..how complex some problems are... how crucial it is my future...how messed up some relationships actually are....you see the actual responsibility.. your responsibility...im not saying im scared...it just seems huge to carry....seems impossible sometimes...just too many... its been hard.. i feel confused, a little bit messed up, insecure.....

*inhale *exhale gotta..calm..down.. 

I need a break.. from all of this.. seriously...little by little feel like im breaking down...who can i rely to? family? so what if they are part of the problem? friends? im not sure if they are true or fake anymore...guess people change.. soooo i write..its the only source that i think can calm me down a bit..its good for the mind and soul...

:) i feel much better now. anyway, nite! :) happy thursday! its almost the weekend...have a great weekend ahead!