envy

lately been caught up with this really really not so good feeling..which is jealousy! god..im so freakin jealous..with everybody everything..what happened? yeah..regret and ungrateful happened...that's just bad...and envy is one of the 7 deadliest sins besides wrath, greed, sloth, pride, lust and gluttony...

regrets just stop u from living what u dream of...everybody have regrets..like if only i did better maybe i could be somewhere . . . and another if only i didnt do that do this maybe i could . . . etc. so stop awhile then move on..never delay...once u stop for a long time it might get hard for some to stand and run again..and another would be about ungrateful..why do we feel ungrateful? cause we feel inadequate in some part maybe..in material or spiritual? what i have learnt is that we have to accept our fate..this is the best for us and maybe there's a rainbow after a heavy rain that is yet for us to know and experience...

for me, if i ever start to get jealous with anybody for their success or wealth or health or life i would ask myself first.."am i doubting God's will?"..it is He that give all of those things..i have no right to question that..and yeah maybe there is something better for me soon or later..just got to have faith.. ;)

also i hate this feeling..its sooo unhealthy...i feel unhealthy..haha must get rid of jealousy!